Problematic people 

The last post on this blog didn't hit the internet in the way I would have liked.

At the time when I published the previous entry, I didn't yet know any name for the presumptive trans woman (whose last name is Merager, and who I will refer to by that name for the remainder of this post) who had been present in the women's section at Wi Spa on June 24. I first had a thought to write something a bit solidarious vis-à-vis the Wi Spa situation in July, shortly after the first antifa-vs.-maga clash in Koreatown, Los Angeles, on July 3, which is when I first heard about it. Alas, life happened and I didn't get too far beyond the draft stage – plus I still had another entry to finish up.

In an article published by Slate on July 9, it was said that the initial incident had simply been a hoax – or at least that there was strong evidence to suggest that it had actually happened, e.g. there was no evidence that any trans woman had even been present at Wi Spa on June 24. I don't read Slate, but the lefty/progressive sorts of journalists and/or Twitter personalities I was getting my information do, perhaps, or at least they were saying much the same. I found the idea that it might be a hoax credible, which is to say, I'm not gonna put it past a certain kind of rightist to fabricate a story like the one that was being told in order to generate a useful controversy.

By the time I got around to actually putting together some sentences for the “Solidarity” post, however, it was already late September, and there had been some developments in the story. For instance, the Los Angeles police had issued a warrant for a suspect, who subsequently told her side of the story to a person employed as a journalist (and apparently that person was Andy Ngo, writing in the New York Post) before turning herself in to police. Slate updated its July 9 story on September 3. Of course, lazy hack that I am, I used a Wikipedia article on the Wi Spa affair to get myself up to speed; consequently I got some of the facts of these new developments mixed up, as I admitted in the October 2 update to my October 1 post. Wikipedia is often good enough for the sort of research I care to do, but that was absolutely not true in this situation, because several of these details were missing at the time when I was writing.

I stand by what I wrote and, to some degree, how I wrote it – which is to say, I think I had a good idea of what I wanted to do, and what I fucked up was the execution. The Wi Spa affair, which was at its origin a controversy about some exposed “private parts”, provided an obvious and relatively contemporaneous example of a situation in which nudists had a clear stake as nudists. I thought that articulating both the how and the why of those stakes might be useful. First off, I wanted to challenge a certain part of the naturist internet (in some ways, the most promising part, insofar as it has some kind of interest in doing quote-unquote “politics”) to transcend the single-issue activism mindset. Second, I also wanted to direct some energy from among those who read these posts (and I guess there are a few of you?) towards an ongoing issue that should have been of some concern for anyone with even half-decent attitudes about trans people. This would have worked a lot better if I had managed to publish initially in July, not October, but it is what it is.

It was always clear to me that Merager might be, at minimum, a person I wouldn't want to be seen defending – but also that nothing short of full-throated condemnation, never mind the available facts, would be enough to convince those whose minds are captured by transphobic, paranoid animus that I was not defending her. For these folks, my simple usage of the pronoun “her” in respect to Merager is enough to mark me as on the wrong side of a Manichaean fight between Good and Evil.

This project is about changing culture, for the better, but that second part won't be obvious to people with different ideas about nudity than mine and not much interest in changing those ideas. A lot of the time, too, there is political opportunity in mobilizing and enlisting a sort of common sense – often founded in ignorance and/or paranoia – that stands against change in how people live their lives, what will and will not be permitted in public, and so on.

All movements to change culture face opposition. In the present moment in much of North America, Europe, and elsewhere, rightist coalitions are stepping up to do just that, often mobilizing against the civil rights of LGBT people writ large or trying to isolate the T from the LGB, the better to target that letter specifically. This is what awaits those who wish for an expanded option of nudity in public, if we were to ever have ourselves a decade of “gains” parallel to those that like trans lib got between 2010 and 2020 (which is unlikely, because there is no such movement to speak of, at least at this time). By this, I would mean increasing familiarity with the philosophical underpinnings of what we're saying about clothes and bodies (without, necessarily, increasing acceptance), more accurate and/or sympathetic representation of nudist characters in popular culture, video games, and legacy news media (hooray), and correspondingly becoming more visible to those with an ideologically grounded grudge against us.

Furthermore, no movement and/or significant population of people is devoid of shady characters, ugly representatives, and bumbling buffoons. Merager, and a few years ago Jessica Yaniv, are to trans lib and/or the trans population what a certain woman from Berkeley – whose last name is Taub and whose first name, not the one given to her by her parents or recognized by the government, is an ethnic slur that she probably has no good reason to use as her personal moniker – is to the cause of decriminalizing public nudity and/or to nudists.

Let's talk about her. Taub was arrested on December 19, 2019, over accusations of stalking, and attempting to kidnap, a 14-year-old kid who had been friends with her son. As a result, whenever her name comes up on r/nudism and r/naturism – usually to discuss the nude protests that she was involved in organizing in the Bay Area over the years, starting in the lead-up to the 2013 ban on public nudity in San Francisco and continuing afterwards – there are invariably comments to the effect that, first of all, she is mentally ill and/or a moral wretch (and these two things are typically often conflated) and that, second, it is wrong to “support” her. There was never any question, of course, of actually supporting this woman, who has apparently spent the last two years in jail, by providing her with money for canteen, organizing a rally for her release, or trying to break her out of prison. Instead, simply commenting positively about her activism is framed as some kind of comprehensive endorsement, or at least almost.

To my mind, Taub is simply an important historic figure – at least within the limited scope of, say, the recent history of street activism in the Bay Area (which is not my concern) or the recent history of getting naked in public, and trying to make that option more available in general, anywhere on Earth. She is, in other words, worth discussing for her deeds and her impact, within the scope of conversations on these subjects. Although I am hardly an acritical supporter of her tactics or her ideas, I also think it's fine if others are a little bit inspired by the reason she is well-known at all; she did the thing that a lot of people (especially young people who are enthused about nudism) would like to do themselves, e.g. she (and others with her) actually got naked in public a lot while arguing that everyone should be able to do that everywhere. I don't think we need to ignore her history of inappropriate behaviour as regards young people (nor should we do the same for any other well-known activist), but I don't think that needs to be the only thing we talk about, either.

And, to the extent that people just want to shut down a conversation about street activism and nudism before it even happens, simply because someone started that conversation by mentioning Taub, I actually think it's not cool. All it is is derailing.

Merager is not an important historic figure at all (at least not yet), but the Wi Spa affair was, and once I chose to write about all that, I had to say some things about her. Alas, given how online discourse works, the way I talked about Merager in the last post was opportunistically used to derail any (online) conversation about the ideas in that post from manifesting, and to put forward instead a combination of uncontroversial truisms (like “protect women and children”) and specific anti-trans animus. I was also told that, by “supporting” her, I was destroying my own reputation going forward.

So what did I say? Well, apart from saying that I don't think she should be in prison, like an anarchist would say, I also presumed that I don't know everything about her just because she has a documented history as a sex offender, I did the pronoun thing (be mad about it), and I reiterated a basic idea among nudists, namely that seeing a penis is not an emergency. I suppose that a lawyer representing Merager's interests in the state's courts could argue some version of that last thing in order to get her a better deal of some kind, but that lawyer probably isn't reading this blog. I said these things because, surprise surprise, I broadly speaking support the goal of trans liberation, which is to say, the end of specific oppression of trans people by, like, society. I have done nothing to support Merager per se. Certainly I have not sent any money to her defense fund!

There was one comment I received, on r/nudism, that I actually did appreciate. It reads as follows:

Any sex offender, regardless of gender, should lose access to spaces where nudity is present. I see no reason that they should be admitted.

As someone who has experienced sexual assault, the place I feel safest is at the landed naturist club where I am a member. I find the bar is set much higher in terms of zero tolerance for harassment and in shared values. I feel far less safe in other clothed places, for example pumping gas or buying groceries.

The idea of safety in gender segregation is false. It's past behavior that is a much more realistic indicator.

In spirit, I agree with this person, whom I presume doesn't have the same sort of anti-carceral analysis that I do. I have a lot of problems, personally, with both the notion of a state-administered sex offender registry, as well as the actual reality of it in California and many other places, because I am an anarchist and I am not convinced it does less harm than good. That being said, I don't think there is anything wrong, in principle, with identifying sex pests as such and excluding them from spaces where, for instance, people are going to be naked. I have more experience in demonstrations and things, I have been annoyed when sex pests were present and generally felt okay about times when there were announcements by the organizers before an action that a certain so-and-so would not be welcome.

In other words, I don't think exclusion is off the table. But I do think there are some disadvantages to it, not least of which is that political and cultural movements of all kinds, especially wingnutty ones like anarchism or comfortism, attract lots of weird and broken people. I think that such people have the greatest capacity to be transformed by these movement into new kinds of people, perhaps without some of the old problems. To be clear, I think that there should be some welcome for fuck-ups and ne'er-do-wells in spaces of anarchist struggle (or whatever), but not necessarily in spaces of nudist recreation that have nothing to do with anarchist struggle, such as Wi Spa or that Reddit user's landed club.

But I talk both about on this blog, and I can conceive of times when they might be very adjacent to each other, or one and the same.

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