Its so much more rewarding to learn by familiarity through integration into your life than by like memorization or school or some shit. Its so nice to just, start doing a thing. Not trying to DIVE IN or anything. Just "this is a thing I will occasionally come back to and slowly build my skills for over time and that can take as long as it does".
An important part of this process is also learning to let go of something when it no longer interests you. Just because you CAN force your brain to learn shit you dont care about doesnt mean its actually good or that theres an inherent value in pushing yourself to. Also this doesnt mean be resigned to giving up on anything as soon as your interest wanes. Sometimes you dont care about something and then you have an experience that changes your perspective and what used to be boring seems new and exciting.
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