☽ recluse 🏴🌲 @gracie@ni.hil.ist

I'm not like other girls. Summer is the source of my seasonal affective disorder.

I'm not like suicidal at all, in fact I've done a lot of healing & recovery over the past decade or so, but damn sometimes it sure feels like this can't go on.

I feel bad bc it seems like so many people like the sun but she literally makes me sick I hate her with my life. A day in the sun?? A nightmare. A cancer-causing catastrophe.

I was thanked as an ally today & first I was like "wtf workplace harassment is my fight too!" but then I realized she meant it in like a individual relationship w/in an institution kind of way

"It doesn't matter if the temperature is right, sticky chicken should be rejected" I swear to god even Texas's food handler cert was less stupid than this

Never gonna work in another god damn kitchen I swear to god this is it

@gracie I'm trans, if that's not clear

I just started a barista/line cook job on the 8th, is it inappropes to ask for the 24th off to do the trans march in sf?

@gracie img description: rainbow conchas with the label "mari- conchas," a portmanteau of maricon and conchas

This is getting hell on the birdsite but I think it's fucking hilarious

Just got to hang with my friend Larzy for the first time since the pandemmy started & she's such a cool dude I've missed her so much

NEW BIKE NEW BIKE

This is for a barista/line cook position...

IT* IS COMPLICATED

*providing employment references to places that don't know me post-transition. You have to say, right there on the application, "hey I'm trans, they know me by [MAN'S NAME] and also might not work there any longer.

img description: rear of a dark blue subaru outback with a champagne-colored bumper. On the left, a bumper sticker that reads: "how am I driving? how does an engine even work? How can a loving god create such agony?" Below the license plate is a decal that says "I heart milfs." There is below that a trans flag diagonally bisected by a black flag, like the anarcho-communist flag, with the silhouette of an AK-47 over the top. Next to that is a black sticker that says "your interest in beauty is not trivial" in textura font. Then, on the bottom right is a white sticker with black text in creeper font that says "that's not what nihilism means." The license plate is visible but has been pixelated out.

My bumper sticker game is next level

Motorcycles are fun, they're awesome even, but if you wanna show up somewhere looking nice, with maybe earrings/heels/dress/coat? No way.

@gracie for context, this is because I live in a 30 year old camper on the back of a 40 year old rustbucket next to a dog park in an older suburb in Berkeley. Almost everywhere I go I lower property values if I stay for longer than a night.

People hate gentrifiers, but they also hate when you bring property values down. Just some reporting from the Side of the Street.

"I'm never gonna have to work at a bike shop or cafe ever again!" is what I said after going to law school. I said the same after entering grad school. And yet, look at me now. Printing out resumes. Talking about sram v xtr 1x11.