I will also say: this does not jive well with my aforementioned hatred of being angry, as the world as it exists is largely a festering mess of unending stupidity, which just means that I am angry and frustrated all the time, which also means that I constantly feel like shit.

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I really dislike feeling angry. I know that many people experience anger as a kind of drive or motivation, but I do not. Anger, to me, is entirely debilitating. It makes me feel like shit.

If I don't find a way to express it outwardly, it gets directed inward, like a wound that I can't stop poking at. If I do express it outwardly, it changes nothing -- it doesn't make me feel better, it doesn't make the situation better, and often, it simply makes me feel guilty (which returns me to the internal wound).

It's also all-consuming and tiring. If I'm angry about something, I can't think about anything else, I can't concentrate, it takes up my entire attention, until I'm too tired to think anymore.

I really just hate feeling angry.

Appeals to human nature are the refuge of the dull and unimaginative.

@caspar Woman in the Dunes is also very good! And they made a decent film version, as well.

@caspar LOVE Face of Another (both the film and the book). Kobo Abe is amazing.

It's always the students who think they know the most who are the worst.

Plato says that if I want to be a philosopher, I've got to lift weights and do math, so I guess I'm never going to be a philosopher.

@georgia my favourite obscure Mary Wollstonecraft fact is that she had a good "gal pal" who she was very close without throughout her life named "Fanny Blood".

I think it's kind of an indictment on the university (or the way that most profs are teaching) that my students always seem to be worried that I'm trying to trick them -- that I've left something out of the assignment requirements, or have expectations that I haven't clearly stated, and its just so sad.

Bats? In MY belfry? It's more likely than you think.

The true crime people really get to me because like "mean world syndrome" is a well-documented phenomenon that we've known about since at least the 1970s, and yet, if you suggest that consuming nothing but media about young women being gruesomely murdered by strangers might have some impact on your perception of how likely it is that you will be gruesomely murdered by a stranger that may be in excess of the actual statically likelihood of that situation happening, you get a bunch of people telling you: "well, I consume nothing but true crime podcasts, and I don't think it's affected my perception of how dangerous the world is!". Like, friendo: even if that were true (which is highly dubious), your anecdotal evidence of how this has affected you is not a real or significant data point...

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"I don't think the media I interact with really affects how I think or behave in any way," says the person who has, in fact, been deeply conditioned by consuming nothing but true crime podcasts and MCU neoliberal propaganda films.

@deluge “Man shouldn’t be able to see his own face – there’s nothing more sinister. Nature gave him the gift of not being able to see it, and of not being able to stare into his own eyes. Only in the water of rivers and ponds could he look at his face. And the very posture he had to assume was symbolic. He had to bend over, stoop down, to commit the ignominy of beholding himself. The inventor of the mirror poisoned the human heart.” (Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet).

This is in response to an exchange I saw on tumblr in which:

a Leninist made a claim about something Lenin said;

an anarchist responded to explain why what they said didn't make sense, using passages from Lenin's own works to definitively show that they were wrong;

the Leninist responded basically saying: no, Lenin didn't say that (and, later, when confronted with more passages in which Lenin said the exact same thing: no, you're misreading him).

Like, dude: if you're going to simp for some long-dead asshat theorist, at least actually read his fucking books and have some understanding of what they say/mean.

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