So I was working on the script for this YouTube series I've been writing. Now all the characters will be played by me so I wanted to change how some of the characters look for some positive rep. So making myself look fat for some positive fat character and a ugly non cis person who doesn't pass. Then I thought to myself, oh no if I play all the characters all of them will be white. I should add some nonwhite representation to the cast then thought about what makeup to use to not look white. Then I realized what I was doing in horror. For 20 seconds I literally was planning on doing black face. God damn it
God I just watched this one video of a cop beating the shit out of his wife. But it's recorded from the POV of the parents young daughter begging her dad not to beat her mom.
Shuts so demoralizing. Like I'm ashamed that I'm a grown ass adult who is in no position to help people in similar situations to this. Sure anarchist activities shouldn't come from a place of feeling like it's a required job but God damn should I be doing more than I currently am.
I really do need to stop watching cop brutality vids it just puts me in a bad mood and makes me want to do very not smart things.
I even looked at one house where the previous occupant graffitied pleas for help and how they want to kill themself on the walls on their last days before they got kicked out.
I swear most Americans are worse off from learning about history from public school. Outside of honors classes in high school almost everything I learned form history teachers was just straight up propaganda that had to be unlearned by reading stuff written by historians. Most Americans would have a better understanding of history if they were never taught history by the US government.
I can really tell bc anytime I talk about the founding of the US, civil war, wwII and other such conflicts a good chunk of Americans just turn into disinformation machines for the US gov. And it's way harder for them to learn the correct story bc they were brainwashed like me as a child.
It's no surprise to me that most of those who taught history at the lower levels were the ones most obsessed with control, obedience and spreading xenophobic fears inti children for no reason.
I still remember my one teacher when I was like 13 would go into rants about how the horrible people in far away lands are almost certainly going to do a terrorist attack next Christmas bc they hate u and want to kill u and everyone u hold dear. Thank God for the troops saving us from the horrible villains.
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